Awake My Soul

"Lend me your eyes and I can change what you see" 
Mumford and Sons

I've always searched for that someone who loves Jesus more than they love me.
Then I met him.

The summer blew in like a breeze blowing across the mist covered lake at sunrise. It disappeared as fast as the sun rising above the pines. Gone.

But somewhere in between, I fell in love. With camp, with the people, and with my best friend.

He had the same joy for camp as me. A love for children. Most importantly, the shear joy for our Lord and Savior was completely mutual.

He showed my his home and helped make it mine. He awoken my soul to new beginnings and a sincere friendship. He walked in His light everyday. He was sincere, he was genuine, and he was loving. He quickly became my very best friend.

Days turned to weeks, weeks into months, and finally, the last days were upon us. August. Done. Complete. Feeling as empty as fallen leaves. In the same respects, as the tired feet tread over those leaves, I was crushed.

He helped fulfill my Omega purpose.
He listened for the pure form of listening, not to regurgitate an answer and personal thoughts.
He gave me advice worth giving.
He cared and taught me to be free.

With his entire soul he cared. When I wasn't willing to let his words enter my ears, he ripped himself open and poured love into me. He defended me in all situations, laughed with me at the dumbest things, he showered me with endless energy on the dreariest of days, and not only did he keep me company when I felt small under the expanse of the stars but he also helped me acknowledge their endless presence. Daily, he suffocated me with his love. Above all, with every breath he took and every beat of his heart, he showed me how to walk in the light of Jesus.

If only I could show him the same amounts of love he continues to show me. For giving me a home, for understanding me in my entirety, for his lack of judgement, for knowing all my faults and still loving me unconditionally. I could spend every day trying to complete the task of repaying that debt and never near what I owe him. I will forever be in debt to him for giving me a summer I wouldn't have ever had without him.